Ok, let’s chat.
You: Who are you?
Me: Chris Wondra (duh)
You: Are you like me?
Me: Yes. Definitely. Very much like you. (C’mon . . .)
You: Are you credible?
Me: Of course. I know exactly what I’m talking about.
You: Can I trust you?
Me: Sure you can.
You: Is it worth it to hang around, clicking my mouse here and there?
Me:Probably not. There are at least a hundred different things you could be doing right now that would be a better use of your time. I mean hell, it’s not like I’m Mark Twain or anything.
You: Yeah, but . . .
Me: Ok, Ok, I’ll big picture it for you.
Core value: primum non nocere.
Setting/situation: Teacher, father, husband, small (but growing) Wisconsin river town.
Core problem: I’m restless. I struggle balancing my craving for more with my growing realization that life only happens “Now.” Anything that happened in the past or will happen in the future are only constructs of my own imagination. “Now” is all there is, and all there ever will be–always. Still–contentment alludes me.
Me: Honestly? Maybe I’m a little bitter. Maybe have to learn forgiveness.
You: What could you possibly be bitter about?
Me: Maybe bitter is too strong a word.
You: What about forgiveness? What did you mean by that?
Me: Oofda . . . That’s a biggie. And I’m sorry I can’t tell you the whole story. But I will say this–if we are here on this earth to learn something, forgiveness is one of the major things I am here to learn. I have to do this every day. It’s a constant struggle. But it has transformed and will continue to transform my life. I have much to say about forgiveness. From my perspective, if we learn best by example, Forgiveness was Jesus’s whole point.
Me: (shrugs) Never mind.
You: Ok then. What is shaping your life?
Me: Good question. After tickling six figures, my wife, Lisa, and I made a values based decision, left the world of industry and put our energy into raising a strong family.
You: So how’s that working for you?
Me: I’ll be honest with you, sometimes it’s been tough. Lisa, a talented seamstress with a passion for health and nutrition, began sewing and selling Shaklee out of our home.
I tried to pay the bills with nothing but a new teacher’s salary and quickly fell into debt. I tried a couple of entrepreneurial things, but nothing stuck. Each year, the debt grew.
So, in 2005, to stop the bleeding, I reorganized our debt (again) and got a second job as a purchaser controlling inventory for a nursing home.
So far the bandage has held.
So here I am, still trying entrepreneurial things, writing a web log, documenting a quest to live abundantly by my values and break free from the shackles of my own beliefs (about time, about happiness, about money, and about what is really possible within this game of life).
I like this quote by Joseph Campbell about the Hero Path:
“We have not even to risk the hero’s adventure alone, for the heroes of all time have gone before us. The labyrinth is thoroughly known.
We have only to follow the thread of the hero path.
And where we had thought to find an abomination, we shall find a god.
And where we had thought to slay another, we shall slay ourselves.
Where we had thought to travel outward, we shall come to the center of our own existence.
And where we had thought to be alone, we shall be with all the world.”
To read this blog is to watch a man struggle–searching the world for his path and his soul for the courage to walk it.